I shouldn't

I shouldn’t

By Rozalliny Munemo

14/02/12

I shouldn’t

I know I shouldn’t

A part of me knew I shouldn’t

Cross the road

All the way

To cover the space

To see that face

Which shortens my breath

That once made my heart skip a beat

That once made my heart fill with joy

With peace

But no

I shouldn’t

I know I shouldn’t

A part of me knew I shouldn’t

Because the very same features

That I could not resist

That I could not be patient for

That I could not gaze at

Without damage to my insides

Without suffering from the increased motions of my heart

The violent movements which make it impossible to breath

In an ordinary sequence

I shouldn’t

I know I shouldn’t

A part of me knew I shouldn’t

Because as soon as I gazed at his face

His features

My heart sank

It was as if my insides were twisted inside out

As if his gaze threatened to rip me apart

As if his voice threatened to pierce through my heart

He was in control

And fully aware of the power he held over me

And I was now sure

I shouldn’t

I knew I shouldn’t

A part of me knew I shouldn’t

Have crossed over to the other side